For the moment

A new summer is here
I still lie drenched in my old pain
When do new beginnings happen?
What do they feel like?
Cause I still lie drenched in old pain

Things have changed
Circumstances too
But the people remain the same
Cold and brutal

When hurtful things are said and done
I wait at the end of the road to move on
I am waiting to be held
I am waiting to be helped
Cause I still lie drenched in old pain

When you and I have finished
When the screaming stops
When broken spirits can be mended
Then maybe we have a chance

But for the moment
I still lie drenched in old pain

I miss you

The world stands still
Nothing seems to matter
Without you in it
I live on just missing you

How can you call this life
When you have so much to say
You put it all in a bottle
And hold your tears till they kill you one day

How can you call this a relationship
When there is no communication
When words are left unsaid
And my heart remains unsettled

How can you be this way
When you know I have asked for more
I've tried every other way to explore
What is in your heart and what I can do for you

How can it be that you cannot see
Me sitting here with my heart wide open
How is it be that you do not see
I live on just missing you.

I wonder

Falling through time
I am lost for words
My friends ask me if I am fine
But I am still thinking of you
The smallest things you asked for I gave
Even when you didn't know my name
Why do I keep wishing you were mine?

I see you in my dreams
Still hoping you would come to me
My life has become a shame
You have messed me up
I have no one else but myself to blame
Just find me a black hole to fall through
I keep reading this line
Like it should determine my life
I hope to stop someday with these lies

I'm standing from the top of the building
Imagining the fall downward
The fake freedom to push me forward
The "shine outlet" to hell
Oh the light at the end of the tunnel
What a mess up quote
No wonder people live against all hope

I wonder what Hope against all hope is
I wonder...if you will ever be mine?

New Ground

Your fatal flaws are exposed
The folds taken off
You are no more blind
A lot of them see you cold
You know He sees you as you are to be
Not who you have been

Life is a journey you say
These thoughts are not a few
I need something to smash
Turn around and somebody to bitchslap
To make it worse I know You are true

Insignificance takes its pose
I have my own habitual lies
You need to keep calling me till I stop
Till we'll drink to my victory
Till the fallen have new ground
Cause it's more than You and I

Its not the fight that freaks me out
Only that I may lose You to deceit

Putting pieces back together
It may take its own merry time
Cause this life is a journey
And cause You are mine