I wonder

Falling through time
I am lost for words
My friends ask me if I am fine
But I am still thinking of you
The smallest things you asked for I gave
Even when you didn't know my name
Why do I keep wishing you were mine?

I see you in my dreams
Still hoping you would come to me
My life has become a shame
You have messed me up
I have no one else but myself to blame
Just find me a black hole to fall through
I keep reading this line
Like it should determine my life
I hope to stop someday with these lies

I'm standing from the top of the building
Imagining the fall downward
The fake freedom to push me forward
The "shine outlet" to hell
Oh the light at the end of the tunnel
What a mess up quote
No wonder people live against all hope

I wonder what Hope against all hope is
I wonder...if you will ever be mine?